Monday, July 19, 2004
12:33 a.m.

Blue ~~ Breathe Easy

I haven't been here in a long time. I was lazy, I suppose. I'm tired right now. I have one hell of a headache. But I'm alive. That's what's important, isn't it?
Thinking back, I've noticed how much has changed and how fast everything's changed. In a way it's sad. Very sad. I sometimes catch myself remembering when life was still easy. Remembering all the times my friends and I had fun, laughing about things we consider childish today. Remembering falling in love for the very first time. And then losing this person. I ask myself, is it for the best?
Life was so much easier when all we had to think about was going to school. We had so much time on our hands. It was wonderful back then. But still, I wouldn't want to change anything. Everything happens for a reason.
I'm going to bed now. *~ E Pluribus Unum ~*

Monday, April 12, 2004
08:45 p.m.

Back after so many lonesome months

I'm back and better than ever! :)

Wednesday, January 21, 2004
10:24 a.m.

Am I so naive?

Am I so gullable? So stupid? Stupid enough to believe everything will be okay, believe almost everyhing I am told and afterwards ask myself, how the hell can I be this stupid?
How can I still believe, when, day after day, it's proven that everything goes wrong?
I keep listening to my heart. And I feel, that it's lying to me.
I can't think straight. It seems everything is going over board.
And I'm right in the middle of it.
And I can't let go.

Saturday, January 17, 2004
07:05 p.m.

The Flash

I finally had some fun last night. It wasn't as boring, as it usually is. But when we left, I kínd of wanted to go back an listen to HipHop the rest of the night.
Right when we left, I heard the song "Get out the way" and it so reminded me of HER. As in, Pfannkuchegesicht. :)
Move bitch, get out the way, get out the way bitch, get out the way.
:) I want for car music.
I've decided, that once I get a better paying job (which I most definately will), I will by a car. And a fast car at that. I got to have a little race last night and I lost big time. Damned little Fiesta. But it was still fun.
So, my first car has to have at least 150 Horsepower. At least. And it would be better if it had even more. :)
See, now this ist what happens when you start hanging out with car geeks. :)
We're going over to a friends place tonight. She's having a little get together, because she passed her final exams. Yay for her! :) I still have about 3 months to go and then I'm done with the insurance crap. :) I can hardly wait, seriously.
I'll try to find a job in k-town. Not too far away, which means I wouldn't have to move. Although I really dislike this damned little hellhole, I don't want to leave. Too many people here I care too damned much about. :)
It's because of all of you, I'm staying here. Now, feel special!!! :)
~*peace our*~

Friday, January 16, 2004
02:23 p.m.

Fuckin Asshole

I am so fucking severely pissed off!

Friday, January 16, 2004
11:15 a.m.

O_o

And I am very thankful for all the emails and pretty pictures.
This other guy from the yahoo dating crap wrote. Where in the world is Schwedelbach? He's ugly too.
I'm so bad. I go by looks. Isn't that horrible?
The sad thing is, I don't even mind.
But then again, would you want to be with someone you find ugly?

Friday, January 16, 2004
10:04 a.m.

7 years

I told you so!
(to anyone who might be reading this, I am writing with a friend. I am not talking to myself)
Isn't it strange, that after 7 long years of looking and gawking, we've finally found two specimen worthy of being them?
Now all we have to do is kidnap them and make a movie!
Now, I bet you were smiling all big while reading his e-mail. Good for you. :)
I wish I'd have someone who sends me nice e-mails. E-Mails, that would make me smile and make my day all shiny sunny and bright.
Think it'll be fun tonight? I can't spend too much money though. As you know, I didn't get paid. Again.
I think I have about 10 Euros left and that's it.
Well, guess I'll have to stay sober tonight.
Unless a certain male blond person would buy me something. :)
We have to go pick up Steven then? At what time? This hair stuff might take a while.
~*peace out*~

Thursday, January 15, 2004
04:32 p.m.

Unfair

Life is so damned unfair!
I'm not needy or anything but I like watching people; and gazing out some of their good looks.
How the hell can it be, that most of the extremely good looking guys are about fucking 16 years old?
Where the hell are the older people?
Where are you hiding?
It's annoying the hell out me.

Thursday, January 15, 2004
11:39 a.m.



Hmpf.
Love sucks.

Thursday, January 15, 2004
09:23 a.m.

Holy Fuck

I had the most horrible night. i couldn't sleep and it's all sebastian's fault!
To think, I really thought I'd be over all this crap.
But noooooooooooo... superb.
On a lighter note, I just caught sight of the sexiest male body ever. O_o Completely and utterly WOW.
www.sunpoint.net/~kaakaos/kuva/astin.gif
Holy Fuck.
Seriously.

Wednesday, January 14, 2004
11:57 a.m.



But what if your best friend ist your lover?

Wednesday, January 14, 2004
08:52 a.m.

Love

I was asked a very interesting question last night:
How do you know when you're in love?
I believe one just knows. There isn't a certain time when you think "Okay, this is it. I want to love now!"
It takes time. Sometimes it takes so much more longer, than one would expect.
So what's the answer to the question?
And, how do you know, when you're no longer in love?
Basically, what is love?

Tuesday, January 13, 2004
08:48 a.m.

Moin ihr Lieben! :)

I keep wondering what it is I'm doing wrong. I always considered myself to be a nice and good person. Sometimes even too nice, because certain people felt the need to use me. And now, after all the crap I've done for these people -- put up with their moods, did their stuff and didn't even get a thank you, and so on and on and on -- I get accused of stealing.
Jesus fucking Christ people, wake the fuck up!
I suppose mostly, it's because I'm the youngest. But then again, a certain elderly woman has been spreading lies about me.
That's something I don't quite get: aren't older people supposed to be grown up? Sometimes I seriously think I've landed right in the middle of a kindergarten-gone-wrong.
This is no fun anymore.
I need to stop letting people walk all over me. I should start speaking my mind and defend myself.
~*peace out*~

Sunday, January 11, 2004
06:30 p.m.

?!

The homepage is finally up. Yay!
It looks really nice, so come have a look: www.noiszreduction.de

Saturday, January 10, 2004
05:41 p.m.

Looking for people to have fun with

It's strange. We know all these people, but still can't find anyone who isn't boring and would go out with us tonight.
Accept Chris, maybe. And Sebastian, without his smurf.
We'll be heading off to meet this dude off of the internet. He seems nice and all but so friggin boring.
A good mix would be a half of what's his face and half someone who thinks according to his age.
~*peace out*~

Friday, January 9, 2004
10:46 a.m.

Uhhhh

I think... I think David Draiman was in a porn movie...
Tell you about later...
~*peace out*~

Friday, January 9, 2004
10:13 a.m.




Morpheus

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Friday, January 9, 2004
10:09 a.m.




You, my friend are a true individual. You most
likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing
things differently, people either admire you or
think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you
are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte
hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all,
continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry,
I am just expressing an opinion)

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Friday, January 9, 2004
10:06 a.m.




Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
(please rate my quiz)

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Friday, January 9, 2004
10:03 a.m.




'Sadistic Bastard' PLEASE VOTE!!!

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Friday, January 9, 2004
09:57 a.m.

Damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got my pictures taken. Not only for the ID Card, but also for "Bewerbungen". 12€ for 4 little ugly stupid tiny pictures.
Great.
~*peace out*~

Thursday, January 8, 2004
04:35 p.m.

One positive thing today

I'm going home after this. I asked Anca to work until 8.
Which ist good.
I can go home, clean, cook me some dinner and go to bed.
And just so everyone knows, I will most likely not be answering my phone today.
I need to chill.
~*peace out*~

Thursday, January 8, 2004
01:43 p.m.

I wonder

I'm at work again. Way too early actually, but I didn't feel like walking home, and having to turn back 5 minutes later.
I feel like going out this weekend. I'm earning extra money tonight. Again. My life consists only of working, as it seems. I'm at the Videostroe tonight. Again.
But, I don't really mind. It gives me something to do. And I get money for it.
Maybe what's his face is going to the Flash this Friday. Without the Bitch. [<-- which she keeps calling me, although I have never really met her. Does that not prove how simple minded this person is?] Pfannkuchengesicht!! But I doubt it.
Although he still owes me a night out for ruining my birthday.
He told me yesterday, that he knows that the punk boy will like "Pfannkuchengesicht" and want to go out with them as well. I so hope not.
Why can't she just disappear or go away?
Leave this place!
But, as said before, she's evil. And evil people get punished by the universe. :)
I'll just have to make sure I'm there to see it.
Why the hell can't Kyp exists? Oh, he'd get her! That would be a wonderful sight to watch. Kyp and the Bitch having a conversation. :)
And people reading this think I'm crazy.
PEOPLE; GEUSS WHAT?!?!?! I AM FUCKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!
~*peace out*~

Thursday, January 8, 2004
09:13 a.m.

The Morning after...

...not being able to sleep. I had a horrible night, seriously.
Carina called last night. It was around ten, I think. I told her how my New Year's had went and about THE JERK. I told her how it was really nice to see my family again. The usual stuff.
What's his face came by last night. At the Videostore, though. He said that he'd come by the house, but instead called to say he'd be going to Serge's Doppelgänger's place. What really surprised me, was that he called, to say he wouldn't be coming over.
That's usually not like him at all. I mean, I knew he wouldn't, but calling and telling me; that's a positive new side of him.
Did I tell you about the banana up the muffler thing? I was watching TV the other night, Beverly hIlls Cop. And there's this scene, where Axel shoves two bananas up the muffler of a car. Now, you don't see what happens. So, I called What's his face the Car Freak and asked. "Why do you want to know?" was the first thing he said. I guess he told Drecksack about it, because yesterday, right before he went to work, he looked up his muffler.
It was so funny. And to think, they really believe I'D do something like that! I was just curious!
Well, I have to go. Go Work. Yay.
~*peace out*~

Wednesday, January 7, 2004
04:45 p.m.



It's almost time to go.
Work at the Videostore.
I so don't feel like it today. I'd rather be at home in front of the TV watching Lord of the Rings. Gotta go!
~*peace out*~

Wednesday, January 7, 2004
10:47 a.m.



You are most likely to listen to Disturbed. You
like great guitars, bass, and vocals. You like
being cryiptic and testing your boundries.

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Wednesday, January 7, 2004
10:44 a.m.

Hell Yeah!


You are going to Marry Josh Hartnett. He is really
shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really
outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will
be loyal to them for the rest of his life.
Congrats!!

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Wednesday, January 7, 2004
10:35 a.m.

The Bitch/Pfannkuchengesicht

I'm at work, bored as always.
I wonder what I'll be doing on the weekend. I'd like to go the Flash again. But it all costs money and right now I'm seriously broke.
Plus, I need to save money for scotland. I sooooo want to got to Scotland this year. 0.49 cents with RyanAir. :) Almost unbelievable, isn't it?
I feel like I'm turning into this bitter person. Am I really becoming a bitch? Hey, people have started calling me one so why the hell not believe it?
I hope she dissapears.
See, here's this girl I have never met before. She doesn't know me, I don't know her. But, because she wants to hook up with my Ex Bo and I'm still friends with him, she sees me as a rival. Great.
I don't care what she does with him. I broke up with him for a reason!
And then they call me up on New Years Eve, and all I hear is "Happy New Years Bitch."
I should sew her for that. Calling me names and all.
But, I have a little satisfaction: People have been seing him with her and all think she's ugly. :) Yay, for me.
Ugly from the outside as from the inside.
And how the hell can this person be so cool?
How is it cool to delibrately hurt people and laugh about it?
They're all evil.
Evil people get punished by the universe.
~*peace out*~

Wednesday, January 7, 2004
09:26 a.m.

Sex and the City

I started watching the 5th season last night. And while watching, I noticed how similar my life is at the moment. Finding the right guy, basically always wanting to get laid.
Guys, you suck!